the only perfect thing about my life are my dreams ;

Monday, September 04, 2006

bye all!

I AM OFFICIALLY GONE FROM THIS WEBSITE.

M O V E D.

get my new addy from me personally(:

i'll be dreamingg`
|11:40:00 PM|

Tuesday, August 29, 2006

cool test!

the Peacemaker
Thanks for taking the test !

you chose BX - your Enneagram type is NINE.

"I am at peace"

Peacemakers are receptive, good-natured, and supportive. They seek union with others and the world around them.

How to Get Along with Me

If you want me to do something, how you ask is important. I especially don't like expectations or pressure.
I like to listen and to be of service, but don't take advantage of this.
Listen until I finish speaking, even though I meander a bit.
Give me time to finish things and make decisions. It's OK to nudge me gently and nonjudgmentally.
Ask me questions to help me get clear.
Tell me when you like how I look. I'm not averse to flattery.
Hug me, show physical affection. It opens me up to my feelings.
I like a good discussion but not a confrontation.
Let me know you like what I've done or said.
Laugh with me and share in my enjoyment of life.

What I Like About Being a Nine

being nonjudgmental and accepting
caring for and being concerned about others
being able to relax and have a good time
knowing that most people enjoy my company; I'm easy to be around
my ability to see many different sides of an issue and to be a good mediator and facilitator
my heightened awareness of sensations, aesthetics, and the here and now
being able to go with the flow and feel one with the universe

What's Hard About Being a Nine

being judged and misunderstood for being placid and/or indecisive
being critical of myself for lacking initiative and discipline
being too sensitive to criticism; taking every raised eyebrow and twitch of the mouth personally
being confused about what I really want
caring too much about what others will think of me
not being listened to or taken seriously

Nines as Children Often

feel ignored and that their wants, opinions, and feelings are unimportant
tune out a lot, especially when others argue
are "good" children: deny anger or keep it to themselves

Nines as Parents

are supportive, kind, and warm
are sometimes overly permissive or nondirective

Link: The Quick & Painless ENNEAGRAM Test written by felk on OkCupid Free Online Dating, home of the 32-Type Dating Test

i'll be dreamingg`
|6:12:00 PM|

Saturday, August 26, 2006

my goodness.

hey!haven updated in ages yea?thanks to the damn screwed up network system in the freaking campus that loads a million spywares into my comp.ugh!anyway, school's been, hmm.fine?as i always describe things to be.

hmm, got projects coming up and all.probably wun be able to go home on thursdays so often already.heh.well, starting to settle in and all, making friends.got melissa as my going back hostel kaki.she like damn demure and all, actually i tink she got inner siao char bo character!HAHAHA!not bad.i like hanging around with siao char bos!haha.

you know, its kinda funy how people around you are already changing so fast.i'm not liking it.yet, its inevitable.i dun understand why some people are starting to keep to themselves, or why i haven't seen some for AGES despite the many chances we had.sian.

sian.we just had this union day thing, voting for all those candidates running for whatever posts.and during lunch, my tutorial grp girls were all having lunch wen suddenly, another girl from our class supposedly pops into the picture asking us to vote for her.me n my frens, we just gave each other weird stares after that.why?she never spoke to us before and she's asking us to vote for her?!like, she sticks to her one friend ALL the time, and never evn spoke a single word to some of us, and we have to vote for her?!haha~

anyway, we were apprehensive as to whether to bother voting for all those shit stuff.everytime kena bugged we just say 'vote already la'.haha.but alas!got this classmate caught us, n our lying din work.haha.in the end since we were DAMN free, we vote lo.but still, xueli n i still din vote for that girl.haha.we abstained.almost wanted to vote for her, but was thinking, so hypocrite for what.abstain lo, she gives me no reason to vote for her ma.kinda glad i stuck to that decision.dun wana feel like a hypocrite.

hmm, got so many things to say, but yet, cant really say it here.i know there's people whom i dun wish to be, reading my blog, are reading it.haha.so i'll prob blog less frequently.more general stuff.anyway, not much time on hand.

i'll be dreamingg`
|2:48:00 AM|

Sunday, August 20, 2006

Japan!Aishiteru!

hihi!

i think i haven't blogged in a long time?haha.no time la.or rather, i haven't been bothered to update my blog.but well, i've been well!

haha.firstly, my class's rather scary.ok, like i think practically all of them do their tutorials!which freaked me out la.haha.seriously, i wasn't thinkin of slacking, but i really thought the first tutorial was meant to be done like in the first week itself.like after first tutorial, den u do it.kinda ting.haha.big mistake la.so i made sure i din go empty-answers to my next tutorial.scary u noe...

anyway, accounting's been rather okay so far.not that hard to understand, but takes abit of thinking.but i'm not hating it like i used to hate physics so its ok i guess.haha.i dun dread reading the textbook.which is good news already :)

you know, i'm so excited.Ayano just messaged Bryan to tell him that she wants me to stay at her place!so exciting la!i'm like going crazy!!!!!you know, i really wish i could go to Japan at the end of the year.that's why, i have a goal.i wish to do really well for my exams.so that my parents will be happy.and i can go to japan!i'm planning to take a loan from them or something?try la.haha.expenses i believe i can pay myself.but air ticket and all i really gotta borrow from em.i swear i'll return it to them la!

hur!!!!!

I REALLY WANA GO TO JAPAN!!

i'll be dreamingg`
|1:27:00 AM|

Wednesday, August 09, 2006

as i did, and always do, end off with a picture with Toru :) for sweet dreams purposes.

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|1:59:00 AM|

their last day!*sobz* my damn eyes are red la.I WANA GO JAPAN N HOMESTAYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!!

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|1:58:00 AM|

megumi n me!!!!!!!!!

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|1:56:00 AM|

zhenghong, qiqi, nehneh n me!the gay onessss

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|1:56:00 AM|

my lesbian partner.fabian looks like a butch.

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|1:56:00 AM|

i tink i look like a perverted old rich man with two meinus by my side.shit.n tt perverted smile of mine doesnt help mch.

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|1:55:00 AM|

oops.Ayano, Natsumi n me.hehe.ayano again.

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|1:55:00 AM|

Chihiro [damn pretty], Hitomi n me.VICTORY!!

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|1:54:00 AM|

its Noriko!one of my penpals!:)

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|1:54:00 AM|

duno y i look exceptionally happy in this photo with Ayano =x nan dao...

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|1:53:00 AM|

AHHHHHHH!YALL ARE SO CUTEEEEE!!!!

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|1:53:00 AM|

the two mao4 pai2 japanese, nehneh n me!

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|1:52:00 AM|

huikoon n me again![cam-whores]

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|1:52:00 AM|

my nehneh n me =p

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|1:51:00 AM|

heyo natsumi!!persevere on with that smile n attitude of yours!

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|1:51:00 AM|

all the GUYS.

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|1:51:00 AM|

Mr Ito, Fukuda, huikoon n me :)

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|1:50:00 AM|

mai...mai...MAI!!!!!y u so damn cute??!!

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|1:50:00 AM|

huikoon n me! :)

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|1:49:00 AM|

hey pretty laydees!!!

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|1:49:00 AM|

blurry pics of the japs agn!

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|1:48:00 AM|

hey kawai clarinetists!!say cheese!

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|1:48:00 AM|

hey everybody!Victory!!!

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|1:47:00 AM|

MJCAB.a growing community.i love them all :)

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|1:47:00 AM|

blurry section combined photo!

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|1:46:00 AM|

4 batches of TKGS clarinetiz reunite!

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|1:46:00 AM|

the straight rows of clarinetists!its been weeks.i still miss em.huikoon just sent these to me!THANKS!:)

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|1:45:00 AM|

My first day in NTU :( ? :) ?

hmm.okay.school just started.comments?

basically, i'm not happy now.even sad to a certain extent i could say.i guess this must be punishment for not going for the damn hall orientation.which results in OGs sticking together and people like us 'the losers club' [yes, the group of losers who din turn up for camp] being totally unable to penetrate into the group.trust me, that clubbing bash shit was a piece of crapshit.boring, plain and retarded.level of enjoyment, zero.perhaps even negative, making us realise even more how left out we are.

you know, we tried.normal conversations go like that:

me: Hi!I'm Geraldine!you are?
so-n-so:Hi!I'm so-n-so!you're from hall 13?
me:Yar!!What course you in?
so-n-so:so-n-so lor.you?
me:Accountancy!What school you from?
so-n-so:so-n-so jc lor.you?
me:oh!mj!
us:*silence for the rest of the night*

simply, the typical conversation.is it my problem or do i have a problem with making conversations?is that why i have a communications managment module?

okay, so hall life is really sad.havent found the right people to go mad with.and sometimes, u really cant help but miss 04S301 and mjcAb.can go mad with em, anytime.and i realised that, you can't depend on people.in uni, gotta learn to survive alone.start to do things alone.coz ure not gonna be surrounded by people ure comfortable with all the time.not forgetting that others are also making new friends already.

and that's why.i'm really thankful i have xueli with me.you know, its really a damn comforting thing.becoz xueli's one crazy woman who can mk me go mad with her.and well, that mks me happy at least for that moment.haha.and we both know we really cant do w/o each other.for all those crappy affair joke, we did say we'd really seriously [no joke] die w/o each other.and tt's y, i'm really happy n thankful to have her with me.regardless of how we allow others to think we're mad women on the verge of turning into lesbians.

tutorial class ~~people~~ girls are really nice people too.some really quiet, but they're easy to get along with.after i opened up with em the principles of how someone's papaya-cucumber mix cld cause her to LS very soon.and i questioned if she was GS-in [that's gek sai fyi].surprisingly, i din expect her to be so open abt it.i tot she'd tink i'm gross.but well, she admitted it!the person remains anonymous for personal reasons. guys in our class are...autistic i presume?they just dun talk, some of them.did NS scare the wits out of them?

actually, there're apparently two guys from my tutorial class in the same hall as me.but duno y suay suay they turn out to be the ones i din talk to!so they dun seem to know i'm from hall 13 either.nvm, shall go talk to em so will have going home buddies!!sometimes, going back to hall alone can be quite sad, but it takes time to get used to it la.

oh well, i duno if uni's gonna be happy.its been a mix so far.but i presume n i hope things will get better.so i will not brood over it and make myself unhappy over such trivial issues that dampen my mood for the rest of the day.heads up balloon!things will start getting better nxt week i hope.

no, it will.

i'll be dreamingg`
|12:53:00 AM|

Saturday, August 05, 2006

MY TORU's in the middle.WATCH IT!!

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|10:48:00 PM|

Friday, August 04, 2006

botak chaps forever.

wow~~i've stayed at home for 2 days already.haha.a great big feat for geri the rebellious [in my parents' opinion].so the deserving me got the 'wah dine yu so guai these few days nv go out ah!tt's GOOD!!' from my dad. :) like i'm hard up for it.

anyway, i've been bloggin quite frequently lately huh?and i think my posts have been getting pretty...emotional?nah, wrong word.nostalgic?i duno la~u get the thing.and my dear botak chap...

haha.i swear i won't mug till i forget you la~i got so heartless one meh~when i start working as accountant then u can worry abt that la~KIDDING LA!~u've been a part of my life for like 12.5 years already la~unless i get a coma or concussion, try as i might, very hard to forget u.for all the times u threatened to stuff my head into the t_il_t b_wl.hahaha~BOO!shitface!

hmmm, anyway, i've been catching up with a few shows on tv lately.one of that being the 9pm show on channel 8 [for goodness sake i'm bad with chinese titles k].eeks.did i tell yu i hate julian hee already?for all that hot bod he has, he's got absolutely NO charm or sincerity in his eyes.i swear they ARE DEAD.i mean, it must be the contacts that make his eyes sparkle.but other than that, i find it fake n all.the expression.HOW CAN YIXIN FALL FOR HIM?!!!!!!yuksyuks.ok then it might be just his role n all k.sorry julian hee fans, that just means one less rival for yall can?happy?

on the other hand, i like weixiang a lot!!he's a bit dai dai~but he's been doing all the behind the scenes work for yixin.i seriously hope they end up together or i'm gonna bash the scriptwriter up.yes wk, i know he cant speak, but aiyaaaa~only girls can understand yu see.HAHAHAHA~so i personally like weixiang la.perfect, yet not perfect.they make julian hee too perfect to be true~

AND FOR GOODNESS SAKE!?who would go n propose at such a timing?!!when things are so unstable?!how dumb can he get seriously.[i mean the role julian hee's acting].i tell u, if yixin had accepted it, i'd have switch off the tv n never watch it ever again.wahlao~use ur brain can!wow~amazing how a show can stir up my anger so much.hahaha.

project runway rocks too!i like chloe dao!!hope she wins tho~but i tink danielle will win la~he's good.hope santino gets out next.

i finished reading 'dreamland' by sarah dessen yesterday.i think it was a very nice book.about this girl being abused by her boyfriend jerk[Rogerson].but i sorta teared at the part where she was regaining herself back [u know, all the emotional n physical scars] with the support of all her family n friends.its very nice to have this kinda support at your down moments.heart-warming.

you know, she's been living in her sister's shadow all this while.her perfect sister.oh!her sis ran away from home so she wouldn't be that perfect daughter anymore.anyway, so this jerk made Caitlin[the main girl] feel different la~but i guess she really really loved that guy tt's y she stuck with all his abuse.in the end her sis came back for her after running away i tink.coz both sisters are super close.it was very touching.its been ages since a book has been able to do that to me.go read it if ure bored ya?

lalala~i realised i didn't turn up for a SINGLE orientation at all.makes me the most anti-social person on earth.yes balloon, i'm worse than u la~hahaha.u know, as much i don't seem like it, i'm quite anti-social at times.haha.yar yar.the thought of all those making-new-friends thing, scares me sometimes.but well, its the barrier i gotta get over la.coz once i'm put into the situation of having to know new people, i guess i can handle it pretty well la.its just me being gay n wussy ok.

yay~i got another book by sarah dessen to go!~n i still got hotman to watch!nanami KAWAI!!!takashi [takeshi?] sorimachi is getting charming in this series.when he's angry n all~

noriko n ayano haven't replied me~kinda sad ayano haven't replied me coz she got sms the rest of the juniors.hahaha~jealous bitch.i got this feeling she din receive my email tho~i'd die sms-in her la!my mom sure slaughter me into muthu's curry.

tata~i think i blog a lot~202th post!

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|3:20:00 PM|